:: N.E.W me ::

2007 is my year...

Or sud i say Jul'2007 to be exact..

Cum 9th Jul, i'll b engagin in a new job thou with the same designation, equivalent pay, same department yet with a totally new working environtment, new colleagues, new job scope which i nid to adapt myself to.But im not whining when its much of a better, bigger company, a good staff welfare & most importantly so much nearer to our new abode. It does irks me quite a bit at the thot of starting all over again gettin myself familiarise with everything from scratch but im prepared. Wonder, i may or may not given the flexibility with the current company in terms of annual/urgent leaves & esp surfing the internet which i must say has becum a norm thingy for my boss to see me on it, provided im super free & cleared my pendings. Where on earth can i find sucha nice, understanding, flexible, thoughtful & high tolerance boss lyk him with such a complacent staff lyk me. It actually took me 6mths contemplating on my resignation. Clearly the only reason im still here is bcoz of my boss.

Honestly, i dread leaving this place but the recent situations made me relent & submit defeat. And im been well, working very hard to console myself that ive made a right decision to finally go. I teared after i passed the letter to him. As thou my heart weigh a tonne, felt that ive let him down, ive betrayed him & im so guilty for that. No dun get me wrong here, there is absolutely NUTHIN goin on between us at all, ours are sacredly purely (understanding one of a kind)employer/(appreciative)employee relationship but its just my humane instinct feeling shitty to have to choose such way reciprocating to sumthing/sumone been so nice to u all this while..

Workload have been piling up into mountains & so does my blunders..Mayb ive been 'cursed' (lolx) from my recent break-up that all my work performance has gone way downhill & that has subsequently effect my self esteem & lack of confidence. But im grateful to have such boss who neva fails to give me his words of encouragement wheneva i sms him to apologise my mistakes. Yet the focal point was when sumone hu is of a higher post barked at me for my blunder to the fact that he actually know blardy nuts about it, i throw in my towel..Had my say, i gave up!!Nevertheless, a new offer came at the right moment which i grabbed instantly without hesitant.

See hun had been sucha dear over the past few weeks we've been 'camping' at our new abode. Been sending & fetching me to & from work everyday without fail. So imagine the journey from Bt Pnjg/Keppel/Mandai/Keppel/Bt Pnjg every single day was admittingly a long & tiring one for him. Yet neva once did i eva hear him whining. Not to mention the petrol consumed & the hectic super bad traffic congestions we had to squeeze thru every morning. A 20mins journey can be stretched as long as an hour just to reach my workplace. With the upcoming one, all it takes is just 10mins drive & the best thing its along the way to hun's camp which is conveniently abt 5mins away..

And cum 21st Jul, my entire lyf will change, no more evolving only on ME, MYSELF & I but it'll be WE, US, OURS..and a whole NEW responsibilities happening in approximately 3 weeks time..i still cant believe it but dats FATE.

"He took sumthing away from you only to replace it with sumthing even better, coz only he noes u"

And i totally agree with it..here i am, engaging into a new journey, a new phrase of lyf with sumone to grow old & spend the rest of my lyf with..Im so full of butterflies & anxiety now yet so estatically excited & speechlessly..Syukur alhamdulillah..

So with a NEW status & NEW job in tow, im all set for a NEW me!!*winks*

Another weekend trip to jb for our gubahan necessity..till then..

~ Happy Weekends Peeps...cheerios ~

::Counting Down..::

3 more days to bid June'07 goodbye..

how tym flies huh & now we r already halfway thru 2007..

2006 left me with all the bitter sweet memories~ moments where im being pushed rite to the very edge but managed to pull it thru thx to the sweetest man alive ive eva met in my entire lyf..

how he picked me up from my darkest moments, offering a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on, how safe & protected i felt weneva he embrace me in his arms..he's the reason im back stronger on my feet, shook me up from my idling senses, showin me dat true luv & affection still exists..neva fails to make me feel eva so precious & special..he hu wud do just anything for me, the man i adore & luv with all my heart...my pillar of strength for me to kip on movin, the reason i breathe & live my lyf for..

~my ian, my luv, my soulmate~

A frenship, a relationship, a fiance & insyallah spending the rest of my lyf with him..im glad i made the rite choice, no qualms & regret, neva look back since...

Rite from the day i knew u, neva had i imagine in just 6mths down the road, u'll b the right man for me..The past had tremendously taught us a huge & expensive lesson, the hurt, the pain, the agony & despair we went thru but hey we are still being optimistic & stay positive here & dat had actually made us hu we r today..a better person with a better partner..

On a more switer note, i just cant wait for Jul...thou i must admit im full of butterflies now....*winkis*

~Luv hate relationship~

.......... I hate it, terribly hate it!! ..............

hate the pms dat cums in tow with it...

hate the yucky feelin...

hate the bloatedness in me...

hate the cramps...

But hey i aint complaining else i wun b a certified fertile women then...*pfffftt*


~M.E.N.S.E.S~

~My weekends~

Just when i thot the super long weekends would be well enjoyed..

Spent e nite on tue at Bt Pnjg as we r still not done yet with the house, we r so bushed that we decide to sleep over & rush back the very next morn. Hun dropped me at home wgile he rushed back to camp. Being dolly me, an intended 1hr nap b4 waking up for work turns out to be a lazy, 'ORD' mode that i had to sms my boss & inform him that im reporting sick that very day. Just bcoz, i simply cudnt open my eyes still!!hahaha...u c, sleep has always been so precious to me even 5 mins means a lot to me hor...:p

So wats 2days of mc compared to 3days to conclude in with the weekends??furthermore with hun taking leave over the next 2days..So geared with a pathetic kittish looking me asking the doc for a 3days mc with an absurd excuse but hey its worth the act!..wala!!i was practically grinning ear to ear when i left the clinic..sms huny "so wats e plan for this super long weekend?" *chuckles*

So we start it off with a yet agn trip down to jb to re-spray his car coz the initial done up was far from satisfactory. We borrowed abg's car & drove around while waiting to collect it back in the evening. Had lunch then after we head down to collect my dulangs & zoom off to our all-tym fav Jusco Tebrau in search for hun's hantaran baju & a bit of out-of-context shopping lolx..well i just cudnt resist it, dey r having sale all over..*crossed eye*

Well so we came back to fetched kak hanie frm work, collect our car, accompany her to the doc & head back home not b4 a fateful (read : suay) brush with the authorities thx to the ciggie pack in my bag. I was let off with a stern warning & 7 bux off my account for sumthin which was not at all mine!!blardy arse!!& wat did i get in return, 'ala custom ni seme ngada2 je la, cik slalu tak kena ape2 dia tgk muka korang ngada2 tak tu pasal dia tahan'...*@#^ so much for helping..~well i rest my case....*sigh*

Fri start out with our appt with the bridal for our wedding potrait, but i muz say the svc rite from the start sux!well for now i sudnt mention names but should e potrait is done not up to wat i had wanted it to be, i wud definitely cancel off the whole package altogether. Still in between we manage to sneak & took our own shot..

do u noe dat men r more fussy den we women wen it cums to such things..all it took was 2 choices & im done with my gown while he, in all it took him 5 indecisive changes b4 he finally decide on this white suit..*slap forehead*

But sadly he was called back for mock manning on sat, and i had to go to my cuz's latest addition 'cukur rambut' with mummy.. lingers with cuzzies was always sumthin we all looked forward to..

And hun was eva so swit to fetched me up from pasir ris back home & rushed back agn to his camp in mandai in a jiffy..*thk u so much, lurve u loads syg!!*

The finale & dreaded sun came, Hun spent whole of his Sat in camp & fetched me home as early as 7.30am back agn to Bt Pnjg. My i muz say its kinda tiring shuttling to & fro between Holland/Woodlands & Bt Pnjg but its all worthwhile when with him. Anyway it isnt me doin the drivin so it is still alrite..*winks* The whole afternoon was spent catchin up our lost sleep. Waking up around 6+ & head down to Vivo to get the ring. Another 'k' burnt from his pocket..lolx..sum up the day w a dinner @ Fish & Co & head back home..

And on a higher note, Selamat Pengantin Baru to my dearest cuzzie..